Photography-wise, this has been the best year ever! We have gotten to meet so many great couples and be a part of so many beautiful, heartfelt days. However, life-wise, these past twelve months have been a roller-coaster. A roller-coaster that didn't begin twelve months ago but, started the day that we sat down, had a great breakfast, (that we made together in my tiny college apartment kitchen), and decided we wanted to get married. I'm not exaggerating, I promise.
The past nine years have been filled with amazing moments, and extremely hard ones. One of the things though that we never thought we'd have to struggle with as a couple is infertility. Especially secondary infertility, (infertility after having other children). In no way can we fully understand what couples go through who deal with regular infertility, but this type almost seemed like an extra twisting of the knife for us. We could see, hold, play, converse, and watch grow our already existing children, but for some reason could not create any more. We had this gut feeling that our family wasn't complete, but what did that mean for us? We tried and talked about our options for nearly four years before finally deciding to seek medical help.
And then, just like that... it happened.
The baby was set to come summer of 2014 and we were on cloud nine! But, about four months into the pregnancy we received the crushing news that my mom's cancer had returned and it wasn't looking great. We have dealt with cancer for majority of our marriage, and it never gets easy. The final four months of the pregnancy were filled with mixed emotions as we watched another parent go through chemo again. During this time we tried our hardest to focus on the positives. Love the hard. Welcome the uncertainty. It was extremely difficult and there were days where we failed big time.
Then, on July 3rd we got the best news since we found out we were pregnant. My mom's treatment was working! Miraculously she was escaping cancer's evil clutches for the second time. After she told us the good news she cried out, "Okay, now it's time to have that baby!"
Three days later, labor had started.
This is the story of how Ezra came into our life. And how he helped us remember there is an ultimate plan that's been woven together.
My mom and little sister were able to be there for the birth. We were so glad for their company.
Ezra James Hildebrand
7 lbs 2 oz
3 weeks early, but right on time in our book :).